My Life, My Choices

Living in Kailasa for 11 years  amidst a furore, fueling the fury...

From being a successful, respected actor and philanthropist to the most persecuted woman of the century , life took an unexpected leap and flung me off the cliff- suffocating my breath of life.  But every story has a clip hanger , which grabs us from the free fall and hold on to life.

That cliff hanger will always be the U turn of life

Though I had entered the profession reluctantly, upon the urging of my mother to support the family, I worked prolifically and received numerous accolades for my work.

Make up, lights, action!

My choice of life as an actor was most charmed life.

Without much struggle, just simple hard work from the day I donned make up, My God protected me and blessed me with the most beautiful life, friends and family.

Rarely in life, we meet personalities who will hold the mirror and show you that you are much more than what you believe in yourself to be

You can fly higher, achieve more and fill the craving of leaving for this world something worthy, something cherished

Swamiji and His teachings profoundly impacted my souland changed the way I see my self and the world.


Swamiji one being, has and had and continues to cause joy, bliss, heal depressions

Life has many chapters and 2009 was the time for me to move to the my next chapter of my life.

I committed my life as a Sanyasi, a Hindu monk, under the holy guidance of my Guru, HDH Bhagwan Nithyananda Paramashiva

2010-Life Interrupted

My life which was flowing with lyrical sweetness of Mahakavi’s Kalidasa’s Meghasantha, was abruptly transmogrified  and I was thrust in to Shakeshpere’s Macbeth.

From a respected actor, overnight media projected me as promiscuous

A harlot

From a simple hard working woman, I was suddenly become a harlot, a scheming conniving witch.

The vicious attack was uncomprehending

I shrunk back and retreated in to the shadows of life and tried to remain there

Life does spring you surprises, but I least expected as a sanyasi, a simple monk to be vilified , persecuted and attacked incessantly for My life’s choices

The malicious, vicious hate wave was built up relentlessly by anti hindu and anti guru missionaries stunned and stunted me and all my relationships

Embroiled in an unsolicited, unrequited idealogical war , strategized , triggered and inflamed by anti hindus and anti hindu anti guru brigade

“Falsehood flies, and truth comes limping after it, so that when men come to be undeceived, it is too late; the jest is over, and the tale hath had its effect: like a man, who hath thought of a good repartee when the discourse is changed, or the company parted; or like a physician, who hath found out an infallible medicine, after the patient is dead.”

Jonathan Swift

I stood on the brink of the cliff with multi faceted,kaldescope of decisions.

My cliffhanger:



Swamiji and Swamiji’s principles are needed for this world- and nothing and no one could make me change my mind

2009 —2020: The journey continues

A decade’s journey as a monk

A journey of picking life’s gems

A journey which taught me..

A world without violence, A world without hate, A world without jealousy

A world of understanding, A world of love, A world of simple, innocent joy

A world of blissful brotherhood/ sisterhood

Is possible

With Swamiji’s teachings and Principles

My life, My choices…

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